“I’ve been a bad, bad girl. I’ve been careless with a delicate man. And it’s a sad, sad world…”
Oh, Intellectual Vanity, Curiosity — the things you make me do!
Am nearly done dissecting and thus completely understanding the nature of jealousy. It’s been a productive (painful) 4 years of exploring, experiencing, and ruminating.
“And I need to be redeemed to the one I’ve sinned against because he was all I ever knew of love…”
But I’m giving this one, the one I’m with now, a chance. Despite everything.
I owe him, for having made me realize the last and final thread of my discovery through our conversation the other night about past lovers and present selves, a conversation that robbed us of our sleep and of our eyes (mine were quite puffy in the morning).
I would like to believe everything he told me, despite my acquired pessimism about him, about our relationship over the past months. And so I shall stay.